at 21, I know very little about mental health

My passion is mental health. I activity go out o my way to speak about it. I advocate conversations with my friends and family to discuss REAL problems and I am always willing to listen to their mental health status, the good and bad; I am all ears.

But really, I know so little about mental health. Mental health is VERY anecdotal. It sort of has to be. Mental health is very personal. It’s very individual. It’s very very complex. I don’t even understand my mind sometimes, let alone explain someone else’s.

How can we really help if we don’t know much about it? I think being aware of your own health is very much the BEST place to start. Having a clear grasp of how you feel think and feel and how then that relates to the external world. How do your feelings impact the larger surroundings; because they do. It’s why people think that their problems only affect them. When actually, mental health isn’t always about an internal view. Quite the opposite. Inward thinking is expressed outwardly.

Mental health is why we do something. To think is merely to act with an intention before the action is acted. Actions are represented through the outcomes we want. We want to have a good day? We merely feel like it is one, even if things in the day don’t always align with that concept, if we believe it to be good; then it probably is.

Nevertheless, mental health is something I can always explain through my own thoughts. I would like to think I understand the intentions of someone, but I don’t. I really don’t understand much about anyone else’s mind. How can I? I only know as much as myself. I’ve been working on learning myself for 21 years and the project is still under-researched.

What makes me want to have a blog dedicated to mental health? I need a place where if I can write it, I can clearly understand the ideas I have. The thing is, I know I am never alone in my thoughts, but mediums dedicated to mental health feel distance between the sufferer and the research. This is why, my blog is NOT a place for academic referencing. It is not a place where it applies to all. Maybe none. It is not a a charity nor a evidence based website. What makes this place unique, what makes my blog unique, is that I really don’t know the answers. I am learning, growing, remembering why I am Martha. Stories of mental health sometimes feel more like case studies rather than ‘ please, can someone else relate!’.

This is why this blog, is the safe haven, away from the ‘FACTS"‘. Aways from ‘You need to be doing this and this to be better’. Because sometimes being told how to get better feels like a slap in the face, my problems don’t and won’t always align or represent data or research. My mental health should be treated like to individual I am. Like you ARE. Help is great, but I share just in the hope I can help share a story or relatable topic or point of view.

It just so happens, happens to every single person out there, that mental health is an incoming part of the personality and the foundation of the person you see. some people place more importance on their mental health more than others. That’s all.

So really, despite placing so much of my life on a cause I am so willing to learn; I know very little.