a conversation with dad
WhatsApp: Dad
Dad: good morning the lovely Martha, a beautiful sun here. Sitting on my bench with my green tea. Getting a few rays of sunshine before a busy day at work. Thinking of you, have a lovely day, dad xoxo.
Me: hey dad, I'm so jealous of you. It's raining over here this morning and I have a busy day ahead cycling to classes, although I'm so grateful I have a bike! Thanks again for buying that. I really wish I could drive today LOL! Wishing I could be sitting in sun with you today instead. Martha x
Dad: whenever you're around Martha it's always sunny in my world, remember everybody has a little bit of rain, doesn't mean the world stops, It means the flowers can grow. I was talking to a client about you today and I'm telling them how proud I am of you. When you have battled in adversity has been something I will always advocate for my clients, you're very much the role model that I wish for them to have and I always singing your praises. I'm so pleased I bought your bike, is has given me great joy to hear that you love riding it. Maybe see we could go for a cycle together? Have a lovely day and speak soon. Dad x
Me: thanks dad, I wish I could tell you how much that means to me. I don't really feel like a role model at the moment, but I will agree I will keep battling through keep pushing myself I'll just hope that I get to the place I need to be (I just wish sometimes it wasn’t a battle through the rain, I definitely need to bring a spare pair of underpants!). I think my biggest joy about riding a bike is the fact I've had a lot of confidence grow whilst cycling on my own. I definitely like to ride together soon. When are you next free? Having a lovely day at work, I hope today you change somebody's life! So lucky to have you, lots of love Martha x
Dad: you are lovely the Martha! If only I could sit on this bench in sun all day. What an easy life that would be. Then again I love my job I love that I know I'm going to help some people today that might really need it. An absolute joy, I'm so pleased that I've been able to help you find a job (and cycling passion) that you love (even worth cycling in the rain for!). How's the rest of your week looking? I'm quite busy the rest of the week but I've always got time to have chats with you so let me know when you're free? Love dad x
Me:(opened).
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I guess it’s just the time filler conversations I miss. Not particular about anything but just reading worth that are sincere and from your heart only. Your mind, I miss your mind. The reason I like my mine so much is because we share a lot of the same ideas about everyday pleasures. Often we are grateful for just seeing the sun rise again. We liked sun, we loved sitting in it for a couple more extra seconds. It was something we’d tell each other. I like the details of our everyday happiness. I guess communication wasn’t always perfect, now I can just pretend I’d know what you’d day; probably what you would say.
You’d say
you love me
you’re proud of me
you’re admiring my strength
you’re amazed by everyday Martha moments
you’re doing so well
you’re here if you need
you’re going to do amazing things and keep amazing me
You have a lovely smile
I guess I know that all those thing are true; Ive heard you say them before. But the novelty of hearing those words from you are now not so novel. They’re a miss. A lost dialogue only memories can translate.
six months never felt so lonely without the sunshine beaming on you and me together. The sun can give warmth from where I feel cold without the arms of yours wrapped around me. The sun will keep me safe, I know you are still sitting on your bench getting the last few rays of sun with your hot brewed green tea; I’ll still sit beside you.
Missing you more.