moods are fleeting; mental health problems are not.

I think we can often (including myself) will indulge in a sad/bad/low day and instantly think I am depressed. Depressed is not a mood. Depression is a diagnosed long term problem and I do think we need to remember the importance of this feeling and worth it has within peoples health.

Emotions right now are allowed to be fleeting. A pandemic that is constantly rewriting the rules of how we can live is exhausting. The chaosis and inconsistency our lives have fallen into, not sure whether or how to feel right now. Please don’t feel guilty for having low days, weeks, months…

Moods can be a questionable topic in regards towards are they the true core emotional wellbeing of ourselves? Is a mood actually how we really feel or is it just a momentary snapshot? I understand myself when I can best identify the idea of mood and emotions. I currently in a emotional transitional period, I am seeking and undergoing therapy. Therefore emotionally I am not without my mental health being thrown in turmoil. My mental health is weaker and therefore I’d say I am experiencing mental health problems. It may not affect me everyday within all my moods, but I have consistent problems that are effected by them.

As I write this, my mood is actually really content; I’ve had a great day, been very productive and almost feel beyond Martha. More than myself. Is that crazy how I can have a really good day, really really good and still considered myself mentally ill? I guess because my fleeting mood isn’t the sole emotion I feel deep down. I am proud and hopeful that I have more days like today rather than the opposite; however a mood doesn’t change the problem. a problem may have subsided for a day, week or month if our moods have become more consistent. It’s good we can have ‘days off’ from emotions that are problem related. Do'n’t let this give false hope that everything is all forgiven. It may only come back worse and stronger - and not in the good sense.

Allow moods to be fleeting right now- I think we shouldn’t expected to be one thing when the world, our environment, lifestyle, personal goals, challenges are certainly not one thing right now. Moods are swings and roundabouts, the direction is fast and speedy. We cannot predict the next one, but we are very much a mood absorber; moods are felt in only a present sense. mental health sometimes doesn’t always have a mood that swings. Maybe just a subtle, but on-going damper or effecting the choice we make daily.

I am unsure by this debate whether I have still mastered the art of moods and emotional fleeting from mentality health and having a break from a symptom. It’s always worth discussing them, even when this post doesn’t have a answer. Maybe I’ll be finding out sooner than I thought. I write this blog not to always have the answers or inspirational spark for others; merely as clueless as everyone else sometimes too.

Martha’s Mind - still figuring that out …