with the best intensions

with the best intensions I sometimes make myself feel sadder than I actually feel.

with the best intensions I ignore my friends messages until I have energy to reply.

with the best intensions I cancel on therapy because I feel I have nothing ready to give to them.

with the best intensions I plan loads of social activities and cancel them soon after.

with the best intensions I let me head run my heart first.

with the best intensions I struggle to know how to look after myself, feeling like I am making mistakes.

with the best intensions you just won’t understand me, I get that.

with the best intensions I have secrets because I need boundaries.

with the best intensions I become more of what I am now, because later, I could be less.

with the best intensions I write emotions all over the internet.

with the best intensions I go on dates not really knowing what I want.

with the best intensions I stay in my room and never leave.

with the best intensions I lie about my situations, its not always worth the energy to keep people in the know.

with the best intensions I am focusing on me only.

with the best intensions I care about you but that strains me more.

with the best intensions I probably don’t intent to keep you in my life.

with the best intensions I keep you at a distance, for now.

with the best intensions my job wares me thin and yet I don’t know when the quit.

with the best intensions I really don’t see the point of this but I still do it anyway…